The best reason to do anything. I used to call the guy in my brain with all the weird thoughts “Egon. A fun German name. To be fair, his name could also just have been “Autism On Weed”. But I digress. Have you heard of Human Design? As an INTJ you might like it. It’s like the mechanics of human behavior and, um, everything. There, your uncertainty aka Phil is known as your Not-Self. Depending on your design, it’ll surface in certain areas. Most people have a huge problem with uncertainty, but they’re just not built to be (mentally) certain, about anything, ever. So leaning into that, knowing it’s not yours to begin with, is an immense leap forward.

So yeah, great article and wonderful strategy :) Elizabeth Gilbert writes about this in Big Magic as well, here’s my favorite quote:

“Your fear — programmed by evolution to be hypervigilant and insanely overprotective — will always assume that any uncertain outcome is destined to end in a bloody, horrible death. Basically, your fear is like a mall cop who thinks he’s a Navy SEAL: He hasn’t slept in days, he’s all hopped up on Red Bull, and he’s liable to shoot his own shadow in an absurd effort to keep everyone “safe”.⁣⁣

This is all totally natural and human. ⁣⁣

It’s nothing to be ashamed of.⁣⁣”

P.S. Edit: I just read the rest of the article — what you said about Fight Club is exactly what Human Design posits. There’s the Self and the Not-Self, and then the body and the personality. The body is the vehicle, the personality doesn’t actually have any say in what happens. It’s just here to enjoy the ride. The body, or design, is the one doing the doing. But you, the personality, don’t realize the only way to have some measure of control over what happens is to relieve your mind of its decision-making obsession because it stopped knowing what’s actually right around 200 years ago. Okay, I’m going to stop myself now. Over.

Book designer, autistic single mom, Human Design obsessive, severely klutzy chef. https://estherpatrizia.com for HD sessions.

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